I Am A Terrible Military Spouse – That’s OK!

I’m a terrible military spouse.

You know the “perfect military spouse” right? The one who always seems to have it put together, is super creative for care packages, and who looks amazing even when roaming the commissary? Yeah…that is NOT me. In fact, I am a terrible military spouse!

I have always felt this way

I struggle with finding my place sometimes in the groups. I don’t bake cookies, organize social luncheons, or run the christmas party among the spouses.

I can’t memorize military acronyms to save my life. I even forget the ranks of service members I meet almost immediately.

So many times, I have been the spouse who misses her service member’s phone call because her phone was on silent. I’m not always understanding and patient when the military makes big decisions for our family.

Moving again turns me into the spouse who struggles to make friends. I am the spouse who doesn’t have her career figured out and who changes jobs and ideas on the regular.

I struggle with resentment during deployment, and I struggle with adjusting when he returns home. I struggle with preparing the perfect homecoming, especially after having kids and I end up doing nothing at all.

I am the spouse who seems to always need a POA with every deployment because of Murphy’s Law taking over. Or the spouse who never knows what to wear to a military ball.

I am the spouse who is terrible at being a military spouse.

I’m not an expert or seasoned.

I am simply a regular spouse, who enjoys Netflix, spoonfuls of peanut butter and an early bedtime. My idea of a good night is hanging out with my friends—military spouse and civilian spouses alike.

I adore my children and love spending time with them. Facebook and Pinterest take up more of my day than I care to admit. I love shopping at Hobby Lobby and can locate the closest Target before even PCSing to the area. 

Most of my outfits are just some combination of leggings and a t-shirt. And I see going to the gym as an excellent excuse to wear my comfy gym clothes all day long.

I am independent, laid-back, stubborn and sensitive all in the same breath. I love and adore my service member more than anyone will ever know.

I am a regular, everyday spouse who just happened to become a military spouse.

A military spouse finding her way. And I am perfectly ok with that.